AskFM questions are anonymous, so I never really know if they’re real. After years of answering questions (over 30k) on Formspring and now Ask FM, the odds are that I’ve been catfished a few times. I answer, even the more intense questions, because what if the stories are real and the person really needs help and doesn’t know where else to go? Even if it’s made up, there may be someone out there who has aspects of a pseudo-situation going on in her own life and needs to hear the advice to do better.
Two weeks ago, a woman wrote in to say her man had gone to a Super Bowl party the night before and was “acting strange” when he returned home. Shortly thereafter, a neighbor pulled her aside and asked to show her something. That something was a video of the woman’s man receiving oral sex from another man.
Twitter followers began referring to the woman as Super Bowl. For those who aren’t addicted to Ask.FM/ abelleinbk yet, this is the complete story—edited for typos and clarity— thru last night.
Some folk have asked if this story is real. The truth is, I don’t know. I actually hope it isn’t. Over the course of two weeks, the story went to some really dark places. If someone made it up? They are wasting a lucrative talent that could be put to better use as a screenwriter or a novelist.
Oh, and we’re moving to abelleinbrooklyn.com/askbelle. I’ll still answer Ask.FM questions for awhile, but I will primarily be on the new page.
”BF was acting strange when he came home from his homie’s Super Bowl party. I asked him, “what’s up?” He said, “nothing.” The chick upstairs from us stops me at the mailbox today and told me she wants to show me something. I followed her upstairs to her apartment. She tells me she makes it a habit to stay out of people’s business, but I seem like a cool chick and I should know. Why did this chick show me a video on her phone [of my boyfriend] getting brain from a dude?
“Belle, I am hurt. I confronted him he said he was drunk and it’s just a blow job. WTF? First, why tape yourself? Second, how did it get out? Third, now I feel less of a woman, like I wasn’t doing my job if my man getting brain from a dude. I told him he’s an undercover p— and to get out MY apartment. We end up fighting cause he didn’t want to leave and what makes matters worst is I just found out I’m pregnant.”
First, it’s not your fault. Your man also likes men. That is not a reflection on you. There’s nothing you could have done that would make him not like men. That’s not about you.
Second, this isn’t the first time he’s received oral from a guy. Maybe the first time he taped it, but you don’t record your first try. He was comfortable being taped and with the person who was pleasuring him. The person who recorded it leaked it. It’s could be on the Internet, maybe World Star or XVideos, if your neighbor saw it.
It’s not “just” a blow job. It’s sex AND it’s sex with a man. He might have let it be recorded because he was drunk, but you don’t get drunk and suddenly become attracted to the same sex when you’re straight (or on that side of the Kinsley scale). He’s also attracted to men when he’s sober too. He might use liquor to “let himself off the hook” for any guilt he feels about being attracted to men.
I do not recommend that unmarried women stay or try to work it out with men who cheat on them with women and I don’t think any woman should stay with a man who cheats with men. You’ve kicked him out. So you seem to share that outlook.
Re: your pregnancy. You have options. You can co-parent the child with your now ex or you can choose not to keep the child. What do you want to do here? There’s no right or wrong answer.
Also, you do need to be tested for HIV. Your ex has been engaging in risky behavior and you two have not been having safe sex. That’s a priority.
“I wasn’t sure if you would be able to get back to me so soon, but thank you. I haven’t told him bout the baby yet. I was going to surprise him on V-Day. I’m not going to keep it. I have a busted window, a busted lip and a hole in my heart. I’m not trying to raise a baby with that thang. I don’t even know what to call him. A friend of mine is gay and every time he comes around [my ex] is so quick to put him down. Now look at [my ex] living a lie. At least my friend is honest. I’m planning on going to the clinic on my lunch break tomorrow.”
I didn’t realize when you said “fight” before that meant physical.
Do what you feel is best for you, but your lunch break isn’t the time to get it done. It’s not botox. You can’t go back to work after. You need a day (or more) to recover. Do your research.
“I have to figure something out. I keep looking at my lip in the mirror and the hood in me wants to call my brother and have him put a foot on him. But it ain’t even worth it. Don’t need my family in chains, so the safest thing right now is for me to go to bed.”
You can call the police as you’ve been assaulted.
A few days later, Super Bowl was back with an update. She was still in the relationship, and her focus was tracking down the man who performed oral sex on her man.
“I know you said don’t be doing all that snooping, but I couldn’t sleep. I went back upstairs to ask old girl bout the video. She says another chick in our complex sent it to her because the dude (my man) looked familiar. We went to the chick’s apartment. She said her BFF texted it to her. Who is her BFF?
The other chick showed me the original text: “celebrating the Super Bowl with my n—a breaking him off with this fiyah head. Girl ain’t he cute?” Her BFF is the dude in the video. l asked for his number. She said no, she isn’t trying to be messy. Like you already being messy…”
You’re focused on details that don’t matter. Is it, or is it not, your man… on video… getting dome from another guy?
Why does it matter how [your neighbor] got the video, or who the guy is? [Your neighbor] did you a solid by giving you a heads up. I know you’re upset, but it is absolutely crazy to call him. What are you going to say, “Hey, James, why were you giving my man head?”
This is a big shock. I know. But let’s be reasonable here.
Is your man still in the apartment? He’s been cheating on you. Have you been tested for STIs and HIV? These are the things that matter right now.
“It matters to me because he promised he would change after the last time. Now he’s doing men too. I’m good to him. What am I not doing? Even after he gave me a STD, I took him back. And yes, I got checked out today and I am fine. I don’t know what I’m going to do bout the baby. If I get this abortion it will be the third one with him and I don’t really want to do it. But look at the f—ed up situation. If I keep it, I want it to have a real family, but I cant raise a baby and try to police his ass. He say he want me but he ain’t trying to do right.”
Honey, you’re in love with a man who isn’t doing you right. Who hasn’t done you right many times over based on what you’re saying. You love him. You got to love you too.
There’s a video of your man receiving oral sex from another man floating around your city. And you want to work on this relationship. Is that correct? And he’s not “trying to do right”, but you’re still considering it? Is that accurate?
Baby girl, he didn’t change after he cheated before. We’re on time 2, maybe 3, that you know about. And this time, it’s with another man. How many chances are you going to give?
This stops only when YOU say “enough!” how much more are you going to endure? How many more STDs? How many more abortions? How much more pain?
This isn’t love. It’s pain and endurance. It’s not one in the same.
You deserve better than this. You may not think it, but you do. And you can have someone who will treat you better and you don’t have to police him, and your neighbors won’t show you video of him with anyone else, especially not another man. You may not think it, but you can. Pinky swear, promise.
It’s not about what you’re not doing. It’s not even about you. Stop making it that way. He doesn’t get the power to define your worth. Stop giving that away to him.
Re: the abortion, only you can determine what the right answer there is.
“I’ve been with him off and on since I was 15. I just turned 20. He will be 40 soon. We have history and because of that it’s hard to shake him or my love for him. He pays for my school, my rent, everything. On the taking care of me thing, he is good. It’s the loving [that’s a problem].
“I want to make my Grandma proud and be something. All of my brothers are thugs. I want better in life and he is helping me get there. So I try to look at this as earning my stripes. When I finish school, we will move and start fresh in another state. Loving me is hard. He told me he loves me, but because of how his wife did him, he’s scared to let himself love all the way. I want better. I want to be loved better. If I can’t make this work my only choice is to go back home to my Grandma like a failure.”
Babes, it’s not failing to walk away from a man who isn’t treating you right, and who sexually abused you when you were a teenager. It’s winning to love you enough to put you first. I understand why that’s hard for you to grasp. Essentially, you’ve been preyed on from when you were a kid and groomed for this position.
Do you have anyone at your school you can talk to? A counselor? Most schools have them.
You’re 20, you’ve had 2 abortions for a man old enough to be your dad, and who sexually abused you too. No 35 year old man has any business with a 15 year old child he is not raising, coaching or related to.
You’ve also had an STI. He cheated before, he’s still cheating on you and he’s not going to stop. Why would he? There are no consequences. You don’t leave.
If your goal is to make granny proud, this is not the way to go about it. Not at all. Not by a long shot. And walking away from THIS doesn’t make you a thug, or worthless, or degenerate or anything negative.
Love isn’t earning stripes. It’s not an endurance test to see how much you can put up with and for how long. That’s not how it works. The old man you’re messing this may have told you otherwise, but he lied to you. And him picking up the tab on school or bills or anything else isn’t a pass for him to cheat the first, or second, or third time, and not with another woman or another man. He doesn’t love you. He says he does. He doesn’t act like it. The love is in the ACTIONS.
How his wife did him is not your problem. If he’s not ready to commit, he doesn’t need to be in a relationship. If he can’t love you in full then you need to find someone who can.
Moving to another state doesn’t change anything. He will find another woman and another man and he will do the same thing there that he does where you are now. And you will be going through the exact same thing you are now, with another STI and another abortion. The location is not the problem. His disrespect is the problem. And you not knowing you deserve better is the problem.
He is who he is. That is not going to change for you. You need to leave. I know that’s not what you want to hear, but you do. And you need to talk to a professional because you’ve been in a bad situation a really, really long time.
You can get a better situation and a better man when you let this situation go. Nothing gets better for you as long as you stay in this.
I didn’t hear back from her for several days after that. Last night, she returned to say they’re still together and she caught him cheating again— with a woman.
“Oh, my God! I caught him today with a new chick. I went to his brother’s house because he’s been ducking me. I went looking for him, figured he would be over there. He was with another chick. I feel like my heart is being stabbed with a fork. He doesn’t want me or my baby!”
This is the THIRD time you’ve caught him cheating on you. He’s not going to stop. He wants to see other people- hence why he is seeing other people– men and women.
Feeling like your heart is being stabbed is a totally normal reaction. But so you know, it’s felt that way two times already, and it will continue to feel that way until you leave.
You need to do what is best for you and your baby. And it is NOT staying in this relationship. I thought you were going home to your grandmother’s house. Why are you still with him? You’re already putting your sanity at risk; don’t CONTINUE to put your health and life at risk by staying with a man who cheats on you constantly with men and women.
“I’m stressing him and he can’t take it. He said he doesn’t have time for a dumb girl that can’t take orders right. I messed up. I should have let the video ride. I’m so dumb. I knew he was having his hours cut at work and I keep bring up petty stuff to add to his stress. How do I make this right?”
Why are you “taking orders” from your BF? This relationship started out in an entirely dysfunctional way and it’s continued. You were way underage and he was a grown man ILLEGALLY taking advantage of you being young and naive. You’re 20. You are a woman. You don’t take orders from your boyfriend.
Let the video ride? Your boyfriend was receiving oral sex from another man. He was cheating on you. You don’t let that ride. You leave. And not just because it’s another man. But also because it’s the THIRD time you CAUGHT HIM cheating.
You’re not dumb. You’re in a bad situation and you’re making bad choices. HE is creating the stress by cheating on you. HE is creating the stress by dealing with a woman 20 years his junior who was ILLEGAL when he met you. This is NOT ON YOU.
You cannot bring a child into this drama. Pack your things and go home. Please.
You make it right by going home– and staying there. It’s not going to get better, only worse, if you stay.
“He didn’t even try to explain and the chick laughed like it’s f—ing funny when I screamed on him. I don’t know what I did to make him not love me anymore. Maybe I gained weight, but I don’t look pregnant. I am only 11 weeks. I love him. He is it for me. I have to show him and not stress him.”
Honey, I feel for you, I do. A lot of women reading do.
This man is making it plain as day that he does not care about you. And until you leave, it’s going to get worse and worse for you. If you want a better life than this, you have to take the first step and leave.
The screaming means nothing. He’s done it 3-4x that you know of and you stay. So you yelled again. He’s not changing. He has shown you who he is. What you’re getting now is what you’re going to always deal with from him.
He is not it for you. You’ve been with him since you were illegal for him. You don’t know any different. But I promise you, there is more to the world than him. You can have someone who will treat you nice and won’t cheat on you. Or you can just be alone and just as happy not have to deal with all this never-ending drama.
You can’t make him love you. You CAN NOT DO IT. Please, for you, stop trying. Exert that effort into loving you and your baby.
“He’s the only man I love. How do I show him that? I want to keep the baby. How do I make him see the baby is a good thing? I can’t do another abortion. I don’t want God to punish me for keep killing babies.”
Loving him is nice. YOU HAVE TO LOVE YOU TOO, and you have to be with someone who actually loves you.
The guy who cheats on you rampantly, and then blames you for stressing him about it is not in love with you. He doesn’t care about you. He has been using you and taking advantage of you since you were 15.
Did you check in with your school to see if there’s a counselor you can talk to like I asked you too?
You’re in a bad place, and have been for a very long time. But this does not get better until you get out of this relationship.
You don’t want to have a third abortion, don’t have one. You have a right to make that choice. You and your baby go back to grandma and you figure it out from there. You do not bring a child into this havoc.
“If I call my Grandma she is going to be so upset and hit me with a bunch of “stupid girls” and “I told you so.” That’s why I left. Who wants to hear everyday “you ain’t shit and you gonna end up strung out like your mama”?”
Granny’s got her own issues and that’s horrible. It’s also still better than this.
The End… for now.